Wats all this fuss abt??

i dunno y does it seem to me that im spending an
aimless life these days :S:S i know everybody is
with me and i hope i'll get into sum medical clg
next year...still...as days r passing by,
my frustration is increasing....

need sumthing to cool myself down...and oh yea....every
time i listen to this song by hash(??) ITS MY MOMENT....it
really feels k one day i wud also be able to say that
IT REALLY IS MY MOMENT NOW.....waitin for that day
(ummmm...btw...for ur kind information i don't really
like HASH or his songs...may be its just his
camouflage trouser that makes me stick to IM for those
3-4 minutes :P:P:P)

spirits a bit high....mood a bit (or a lot) down

watched this indian song....abt aims...lakshya....
motivated me a lot but only till the song wasnt over...
after that....hmm...wat was left was only tension
abt my FUTURE.....yea...there r lots of aspects of future
which need lots of meditation....

and im helpless yet....

The BIG DAY is over...

26th of nov....just a day and 19 years old i am
now...oh God...im getting older and older day by
day :P:P 19 years means i have spent aproximately
6768 days in this world.....hmmm.....if i luk
back at all those days past....i guess i havent done
anything to think of.....nothing marvellous....nothing
worth remembering ME:s

anyways...it was a gud day...not that much boring as
usually my days r. the day passed attendin calls from
ALMOST everybody....all friends and relatives called and
wished....except a very gud friend of mine....i kept
expecting her call at each and every bell....but she didnt
call me :s or may be she CUDNT call me...i dunno :S
khair...missed her a lot....

the best part was that i started my real day after having
a chat with my bestest buddy...yeah its u....who made
my day.....wish i was born on the 365 days of the year :) :)
....nice chatting with ya....and nice cards ya sent

and yea had my fav dishes in the lunch and the dinner....mom
proved her best cookin skills :)....everything was more
than what u call as delicious....and off course...how can
i forget a yummy bucket of ice cream....had almost a litter
of chocolate icream....with lots of chocolate chips...wow man...
luv it....esp in slight winters...

so...its been an hour since that slightly gud day ended....
best wishes to myself...hope i have many more....

RuLzzzzz....

these days im spendin a lot of time on MEDITATION......
i.e. thinkin deeply on a lot many aspects of life...in
fact im trynna draw my life nd myself on sum sound
pathway.....yeah....a very hard and serious
task....but u hafta do it at sum point in ur life so
y not now!

waisay....u know...KAL HO NA HO...still planning is good!!

so...i have got to a few conclusions...or may be sum
rules which i hope i'll follow from today....i mean
tonight...:P here's the list of rules...

1_ i don't need to saddedn my present for my future. i.e. jo
millay ussi per khush reho

2_ lower ur expectations from others, instead try to get
upon wat they expect from u i.e upni khuwahishoon ko
golli maro aur dosro ki umeedon per utro

3_ love whoeva u want to...but not expecting the end to be
solely marriage i.e do hope for the best, but also prepare
for the worst

4_ give everybody the best, give 'em luv, money,
respect...everythin...becuz wat u give is always
wat u need (and get???)

5_ and off course....how can i forget HARD WORK....u really
have to strive to achhieve ur goals...whether its a hospital
or ur luv!


........so this is it....i guess i spent more than five
days in getting to these mere five points...or rulz...or
sentences...or wateva.....time wud tell...

i'll be at ur side.....

"when the day n night's gone
and u're on ur own
and u need a friend
just be around
i'll comfort u
i'll take ur head
and i'll pull u thru
i will understand
and u know that
i'll be at ur side
there's no need to worry
together we'll survive
thru the haste and hurry
i'll be at ur side
if u feel like u r all alone
and u have no where to turn
i'll be at ur siide

if im standing still
and u r so confused
and u cannot find
y i broke into tears
if u make me stay as u cant let me down
i'll still believe
and will turn around
and u know that
i'll be at ur side
there's no need to worry
together we'll survive
thru the haste and hurry
i'll be at ur side
if u feel like u're all alone
and u have no where to turn
i'll be at ur side

i'll be at ur side
i'll be at u side

.......and u know that
i'll be at ur side
there's no need to worry
together we'll survive
thru the haste and hurry

i'll be at ur side
if u feel like u're all alone
u HAVE got sum where to turn
cuz im right there

ill be there for u
ill be right there for u

Till there's light again!!!!

yeah.....life is getting tuffer day by day...if one confusion clears out....a new one is already there....i really dont wanna hurt him...or disobey my parents....i still dont find out who is at top of my love list....mayy be i want this list to be horizontal....

now i have decided....i'll run away....run away from all this bull shit....and that one is with me...sure abt at least this one fact of my life and friend...


hope u enjoy every moment of ur life yaar....and hope those basstuds get punished....khair...still one thing....trust me that i trust u....and even if the whole world takes u wrong....i wont be among that whole world.....


....cumin to my day....it was nice...not a lot gud....the best part happened twice a day....and wish it happens everyday :P ..........baki subhi wohi routine wala...khna peena....tv...net....aur buss....oh yeah....thought of crying twoce...per as im a warrior...it doesnt suit me...or the tears themselves dont cum out!!!



GW's empty mind's barren thoughts

Barren Thoughts.....might these be!!!!

hmmm....wat is life and wat we r here for??

i guess i almost knew it...but its all too confusing...when we need sumthing y cant we get it?? wat r these social barriers for?? yes...to bring sadness in our lives....and not for anythin else....


yeah...u r rite...i AM quite tense....y??? becuz of many many reasons....ager likhni shhuru ki tu shayad poora blog khatam ho jaey ga.....ya may be aik bhee line poori na ho....c confused abt this thing as well....

life has got more than wat u call as BORING....suba utho...tv dekho...khao...piyo...sooo jao....this is not the life i dreamt off.....main nay aik doctor bunana tha...upna hospital banana tha...aik zabardast ngo banan thee....aik acha kaam kerna tha.....i thought of bringin this slight change in this world....for the pppl arouund me...for their benefit....but.....wat happened and wat is gonna happen in future....present and future...present is nightmare...and future a mystery....

not just my career...may be the whole life is a mystery....

and im really fuckin tired of these MAY BEs and MIGHTS BEs, the BUTs and the IFs and off course the WHYs....wandering all around my mind.........