Life......

im quite tirerd rrite now...so my post wud most prolly not be long this time....tired of (off) a lot of things....first its the bad weather, then the bad cough, and then the worst thing...S.T.U.D.Y......



man...the hardest thing in this world after love is surely study. though i wanna becum a doctor....a succesful one...Insha Allah......still...i dont feel like studying at the moment..... acha mazak hay.....jaisay hi kitaab kholo....bhok lag jati hay....bhook na lagay tu neend a jati hay :S:S ..... ajeeb life ho gaey hay....



aik tu i dont get it y the hell ppl havent got anything else to do....other than study?????? ....khud bhee masay main aur dosray bhee un ki wajah say maslay main.... jitna ziyada log perhtay hain, utna ziyada competition increase hota hay......jitna competition increase hota hay utna hi merit high ho jata hay......jitna merit hight hota hay, utni hi ziyada mehnut kerni purti hay mujhe jaisay students ko......jitni mehnut ziyada kero, utni hi ziyada tension hoti hay failure per......aur jitna failure, uss say kahin ziyada dant, zillut, mazak.......



ufffffffffffffffff



fucking tired of all this....when i go to academy.....thats the worst part of the day...students know damn tooo much....shayad hi koi aisa ho jo meri tarah ka loser ho :S:S:S jo chaar chaar % marks ki wajah say zaleel ho raha ho :(:(



anyways...enuff of studys......i wish my head doesnt burst with all the tensions :S:S ....trying my best to ease myself.... was just craving for a chocolate.... but its toooo late and i know i cant get one.....sighzzzz



hey....one thing happened today (dont know which adjective shud b used here.....funny, interesting, strange or absurd??? :S:S).....i went for shoppin today and there i met an age old school friend.....and i recognized him at once but didnt know whether he remember me or not.....then the real thing beagn....yeah....he had NOT forgotten me...he came close and after a formal hello hiand whereabouts, he said , Areej tum itni healthy kub say ho gaey ho??? main tu tumhain pehchaan hi nahi saka iss AACHI sehat ki wajah say ............ and shyttttt.....there stood me....shocked.... confused.... annoyed....aur pata nahi kiya kiya.....may b im never expecting that comment from any one...... woh bhee meray mun per :@:@:@:@



khair....Allah bhala keray us ka.....now i wud luv to go to sleep.....and i know u (any reader) must be shouting at me as i said this post wont be long.....but im sorry....it got long mistakenly.....so now go and regret for wasting this much time on reading this piece of shit.....ager yehi time upni course books ko perhnay main lagatay TU............

Start of a New Beginning...

okay....im too happy rite now :D:D:D....cudnt sleep well since last night....and this time i cudnt sleep cuz of sum happiness and not cuz of any tension or depression.... :D:D


its been a long time since i last posted at my blog....and i was missing u toooo much, my sweet bloggy :P:P it seems as i turn to u only when im too depressed or tooo happy....and plz plz plz pray that this time my happniess lasts longer.....and/or FOREVER!!!


now....watelse....hmmm...theres toooo much...but thats pretty much personal dude :P:P still....i am at last in that serious relation once again which i was trynna forget :S:S .....now c wat happens again....but im sure it wud lead to sumwhere called HEAVEN :D:D:D INSHA ALLAH !!


....all i can think of rite now and mutter....is my most fav song by Savage Garden....i hope i didnt post the lyrix before....salute to Savage Garden for composing a song like this....thanx a lot....here come the lyix....read & enjoy, think & ponder....



Truely, Madly, Deeply !!


I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need


I'll love you more with every breath
Truly Madly Deeply Duo
I will be strong, I will be faithful
Coz I'm counting on


A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning (yeah)


I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me


And when the stars are shining
Brightly in the velvet sky
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry


The tears of joy for all the
Pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded
By the comfort and protection of


The highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you


I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me


Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
Coz it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come


I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need


I'll love you more with every breath
Truly Madly Deeply Duo


I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me




yeah...i'll be faithful, once and forever and this is truely the TRUTH!!!



and hey....i just randomly read this on another blog and this thing really catched my attention. the para that follows gives the diff meanings and and supposed background of the word FRIEND.... this is very interestiing.....ead this....



Meanings of "Friend":

1- A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2- A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
3- A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
4- One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.



Word History:

A friend is a lover, literally. The relationship between Latin amcus friend and I love is clear, as is the relationship between Greek philos “friend” and phile “I love.” In English, though, we have to go back a millennium before we see the verb related to friend. At that time, frond, the Old English word for friend, was simply the present participle of the verb fron, “to love.” The Germanic root behind this verb is fr-, which meant to like, love, be friendly to. Closely linked to these concepts is frithu-, meaning peace.



thats enuff for today....more than enuff indeed....but had to share my happiness with sumone....and the sumone came out to be my blog....

EId.....

this was really the best Eid ever....got the most CUTE
bakra....a white slim n smart goat with brown spots....
hehe....luved it....and it was really a very hungry and
greedy kinda barkra i must say :P:P



and another aspect of eid...clothes....i luved my suit i
wore on the first day and the one i wore on the second day
was superb too.....almost everybody appreciated them....
they were nice fitting and the shades were those that i had
always wished to wear but never got a chance.....so im
tooooo much satisfid abt that.....



now the most imp thing...the eid prayers.....man oh man....
i luved that weathe and that place has always been my
favourite.....for nimaz and for picincs too :P:P .....
we sat on the wet grass with slight rain over our heads...
this was the first time i really enjoyed this kind of
weather and met allmost the whole family (baba's side)



and yeah....here comes the food section....luved the
channay ki chat my mmom makes on very eid...sent
the chat to other PEOPLE as well....dunno if they liked
it too or not....but i jst luved it man....and mutton on
the 1st day was as usual not much gud...chicken was better
but was already full with that chat... so didnt eat much...
the second day was perfect from food point of view
...........ate the best chicken and best mutton and the
best ice cream........



lots f guests visited us...sum family friends, sum relatives
and sum special ppl cacme twice (not as a proper guest
thou:S)....it feels gud when ppl cum and/or we go to
visit others...it adds suger to the cake....i.e. brightens
the eid....



....and yeah....how can i forget music....listened to ssum
nice songs....here comes the best song i listened to on this
Eid....and cudnt stop hummin it even when i was sitting
among those lots of aunties on the eid lunch :P:S



I'm No Angel.....
(Dido)



If you gave me just a coin
for every time we say goodbye

Well I'd be rich beyond my dreams,
I'm sorry for my weary life

I know I'm not perfect
but I can smile

And I hope that you see this heart
behind my tired eyes

If you tell me that I can't,
I will, I will, I'll try all night

And If I say I'm coming home,
I'll probably be out all night

I know I can be afraid
but I'm alive

And I hope that you trust this heart
behind my tired eyes

I'm no angel,
but please don't think that I won't try and try

I'm no angel,
but does that mean that I can't live my life

I'm no angel,
but please don't think that I can't cry

I'm no angel,
but does that mean that I won't fly

I know I'm not around each night
And I know I always think I'm right
I can believe that you might look around

I'm no angel,
but please don't think that I won't try and try

I'm no angel,
but does that mean that I can't live my life

I'm no angel,
but please don't think that I can't cry

I'm no angel,
but does that mean that I won't fly.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well.....i really DO feel gud at times.....sum very
particular times..... the wedding is goin on very
fine too.....the dishes were very tasty..... and thanx
to God and the organizers (nawaz chacha , tanzeela baji,
amir bhai, ????) the nice seating arrangements......
theres lot of space to walk and wander and look around
...... hehehehe.......dont u know wat i mean ???:P:P



and hey....im quite tired rite now and cant write much...
but two important things......


1- a few people said i was looking gud in those clothes
and the make-up i did :D:D

2- many people came to me and told me that i was really looking quite smart n that i shud have changed the colour of my lipstick now :P:P:P



okay...sleeping time...so tired....kal bhee to jana hay
na....fresh fresh ho ker........

Emotions Runnin' High.....very very high !!!

When Love & Hate Collide
(Def Leapord)



You could have a change of heart,
if you would only change your mind
Instead of slamming down the phone girl,
for the hundredth time
I got your number on my wall,
but I ain't gonna make that call
When divided we stand baby, united we fall


Got the time got a chance gonna make it
Got my hands on your heart gonna take it
All I know I can't fight this flame


You could have a change of heart,
if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby,
time after time


Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When LOVE and HATE collide


I don't wanna fight no more,
I don't know what we're fighting for
When we treat each other baby,
like an act of war
I could tell a million lies
and it would come as no surprise
When the truth is like a stranger,
hits you right between the eyes


There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time


Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide


You could have a change of heart,
if you would only change your mind
Cause I'm crazy 'bout you baby
...Crazy...Crazy


Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you8
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
If you have a heart at all
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide




dont need to say anything more....do i??? the function was
gud... but had to leave earlier becuz of sum unavoidable
circumstances....i atteneded the whole function a day before
but.....that wasn't better than the one i atteneded today...
the lesser time i spent tonight, was far better than the
longer time i spent that day!!!!



abhi tu aisay hi aur functions bhi attend kernay hain :D:D

Ub ager Tum millay tu......

im feelin quite numb these days.....i cudnt get to
sleep comfortably since last three nights....pehlay
the days used to pass by easily and only the night
was a tuffer thing to do with.....now both the day
and night r difficult to pass.....


hmm....im glad this year has started so nicely....
two very very dear and special people sent me very
special wishes for the upcoming year i.e. 2005...
and yeah..its passing by......


man......i hate these winters....i just hate 'em


no matter how much i try to convinve my mind that this
season ain't that bad, but it WAS bad and IS bad and
wud remain the most uncomfortable season for me!!!



the only thing im enjoying rite now is the whole
variety of gud and new mp3z that i just borrowed
from a friend.....listening to 'em. liking 'em
and muttering 'em...



......and abt the things im hating rite now......
hmmm.....theres a long long list.....im missing a
few people , hating a few people and having
pity for certain....



sumtimes NO tsunami hits ya, still u feel like
u r the most destitute person in this whole damn
world



yeah...i do feel like cursing this whole world
sumtimes but i cant.....after all....this is
the world where i have been living and i hafta
live life-long.


i feel like im getting hysteric these days....i
luv to lie down on my matress most part of the
day and ponder over a lot many things....i just
feel contented while abusing people or while
abusing my own self....


how cud i b so silly,
such a big fool, y it had to be me????


neva got any reply......



well...this is life....i hope it ends soon....




AFFIRMATION
[Savage Garden]



I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good becuz it's bad for u
I believe ur parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self-esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone


I believe in karma what u give is what u get returned
I believe u can't appreciate real luv till u've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe u don't know wat u've got until u say goodbye


I believe u can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe ur most attractive features are ur heart & soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires


I believe in karma what u give is what u get returned
I believe u can't appreciate real luv till u've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe u don't know what u've got until u say goodbye


I believe forgiveness is the key to ur unhappiness
I believe dat wedded bliss negates da need to b undresed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love, surviving death into eternity


I believe in karma what u give is wat u get returned
I believe u can't appreciate real luv till u've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe u don't know wat u've got until u say goodbye



how true.....isn't it??? it seems more like a list of
facts than a song....still....wateva it is....it really
is AFFIRMATION for me.....

That IS supposed to b true!!!

listenin to this song....in fact a great song...
and im enjoying these shakin winters with this song
and sum oldddd memories....golden memories...


I'd Die For You
J. Bon Jovi

If you could see inside my heart
Then you would understand
I'd never mean to hurt you
Baby I'm not that kind of man

I might not say I'm sorry
Yeah, I might talk rough sometimes
And I might forget the little things
Or keep you hanging on the line

In a world that don't know Romeo and Juliet
Boy meets girl and promises we can't forget
We are cast from Eden's gate with no regrets
Into the fire we cry

I'd die for you
I'd cry for you
I'd do anything
I'd lie for you
You know it's true
Baby I'd die for you
I'd die for you
I'd cry for you
If it came right down to me and you
You know it's true, Baby I'd die for you

I might not be a savior
And I'll never be a king
I might not send you roses
Or buy you diamond rings

But if I could see inside you
Maybe I'd know just who we are
'Cause our love is like a hunger
Without it we would starve

In a world that don't know Romeo and Juliet
Boy meets girl and promises we can't forget
We are cast from Eden's gate with no regrets
Into the fire we cry

I'd die for you
I'd cry for you
I'd do anything
I'd lie for you
You know it's true
Baby I'd die for you
I'd die for you
I'd cry for you
If it came right down to me and you
You know it's true, Baby I'd die for you