The Burnin' Me - Wrath of Hatred

yeah...man im soooo amazed ....how cud ppl b so mean....u were the one who used to give those heavy yet meaningful statements....i think i need not remind ya of all those promises and woos.....areej how did i ever live without u....damn....these words still echo in my mind...my heart....huuh.....was a big fool i ever trusted ya....sid u never deserved me....or else i didnt deserve ya.....and i wud have been a lot happier if u had never come into my life.....i hate those days...u destroyed me, my career, my repute....everything.....u dont even know wat i did for ya.....those thousands of rupees wud have meant a lot to skmh and sigh u nevaeven noticed....my friends meant a lot to me and i meant a lot to them....but just coz of ya....i destroyed my whole family life, my friendships.....still ashamed of shouting at my father coz he thot sooper S and aqsu were intelligent enuff for not knowing ya...huhhh....wish u had ever realized wat risks i was taking just for u......how hardly/harshly u have played with me......the way u used me.....nobody wracked this warrior so badly.....nobody ever dared........and me....just impressed by the shit u always popped up with....dammit.....



If there exists a flood of hatred.....then this is surely wat im flowin/sinkin in rite now.....



is this how u treat sumone u used to live for......man im impressed....as always...main tumharay iss idea say bhee bohat impress hui hun....aik woh wakt tha when one of my telephone lines was always bz....with u...when that fone used to ring at least thrice a day....and it was the same voice every time i piked it up....and that surely was urs....u never hesitated callin me even at 4 or 5 ams....coz i was like a free counsellour for u....just at a distance of one call....u dial 536635 and there i was consoling ya....cheerin ya up with my jokes....listening to ur woos....how u had a fight with ur mom....how riba betrayed u....how nab hurt ya....and afterwards how zainy wud tease ya with those cheap one-liners......and now.....its only been 24 days since u last called me.....man.....its okay.....im quite happy with that....dont worry....i'll myself call ya on 3rd march...after a whole month....just to chk if there really has been any affect on u after not talking to sumone whom, u said, u supposed as sumthing totally urs, for whom u lived sum time back, who....... ok...forget it....pichli batoon ko repeat kernay ka kiya faida....wud just hurt me more and give sooper s and aqsu another chance of laffin at me......



u knew....26th of feb was quite an imp day for me.....and u dared not gimme a call and console.....and remember.....the 27th of dec,the 21st of jan-04, the 14th of feb, the 24th june, and all those imp days of ur life....when i was the first one to come and offer ya a shoulder.....and how i got dismissed just coz of u.....how i was getting a bad name only coz i was found with ya.....the way i missed my papers just to b with u coz i thot u needed me more than those grades that i needed.....im hurt....really a lot.... everybody still makes fun of me abt the way i had a fight with mrs. sarfraz coz she made a hell of scandel....and it was me....only me.....who defended u more than defending my own self.....and i wish i had never had an arguement with my brother just for someone who's you......huhhhhhhhhhhh......



huuhhh.....now im tooo happy for zainy being expelled from school.....yeah dude....u deserved that.....i really had no personal enmity againt zain.....but u left me for sumone whom u met harldy a few months back.....this was bound to happen.....but believe me yarr.....if u had just called me once......asked me once (and i DO NOT say requested)......i wud have done anything and everything to persuade muneeb to leave all that.....and i bet zainy wudnt have been expelled.....but u have not been fair towards me.....neither has zainy been fair towards muneeb....huhhh.....wat wud ya have done if i had punched ur zainy at face....haan....yeah.....thats y im with muneeb.....and im happy to tell him that he really has now taken the position for which he was always jealous of ya.....and i have got no regrets.......




i proudly admit/declare :-


AMERICANS R BASTIDS....(all they know is how to play with words and hearts)!!!

one shud listen to wat one's parents and friends say...

ur career shud always b ur first priority.....after ur family....

friends r only very few in this world....one cant have all of 'em....so just b happy with the handful u have....dont search for any more.....




okay......thats enuff.....i guess im no more sad or wateva.....if u dont give a fuck abt me....then i too havent got any free fucks for u....need a screw...get it from zainy.... havent got one for u.....and dont mind....i never meant to say wateva i just wrote....may b its all out of anger or may b its all outta luv.....and i hope i wont b regreting for all this afterwards.....coz im already regreting a lot for wasting a whole precious year of my life......and i don wanna waste any thing, any more.....



i luv a lot of ppl....and i wish i dont luv u any more....u were just like a gud dream with a bad tabeer (wateva it is in english)....had fun with u when we two were together......had sum best moments with u....now i wish u all the best for ur life with zaini.....and as u said "Areej, tumhii nay tu hamari shadi kerwani hay" dont worry.... i'll do that one more favour upon u.....just as a token of luv u bestowed on me during those days when i was lonely,down,frustrated and needed care....and i hope u wont be revealing those secrets i dared tell sumone for the first n last time just in friendship....



and the last thing.....do NOT misjudge me.....i never was....and never wud b jealous of sumone who's merely zainy.....u said i was a down to earth person....and sooper S giggled that u only meant zameen per girri hui.....if u really meant that....than its quite okay to think the way u r.... now-a-days....