....Thine is All Love....

okay....got online after a few days....wasnt feelin well all thru last three days.... aur ub my condition has been even more worsened.....khair....life is really fucked up write now.....did this course of anti-biotics....no gud.....have got an abcese again (howeva we spell it :S)....and its aching....whole right side....swolen tonsil...deafened ear.... watering eyes....haaaaahhhhhhhh


khair.....hereby tonight i declare....jibran...yaar i luv u....u agree or not....believe it or not.....i really cant force u to accept this....but i know i can prove this by my expressions, deeds or wateva......i dont care whether u reject me or accpt me....i want to c u happy....with me or with anyone out there.....i wud b a lot happy if u accept me...... ya know wat....i cant say that whether i wud b able to live without u or not.... but the real thing is i dont want to live without u ...... i cant say whether we wil get to b together or not....but wat i think is if we ever do...we wud INSHA ALLAH make the best couple ever..... ya know wat....even if not in real life.... but i have lived a whole life with u....a nice happy family life.....in my dreams n fantasies.....i dunno wat u think abt me....but the only thing that matters to me is that i really care abt u....may b i can never show that to u.....but that is a fact....


okay.....now it comes up to me....as always....i was quite bored of the academy and all that stuff....now quite shocked at hiding things and love tu door ki baat....anyways.....life has to go on....i have just got this mood swing in a second.....comin from the previous paragraph to this paragraph....i have become a totally different person....but fuck everything.....all that was true and is true irrespective of the mood swing or the paragraphs :S


my papers r just around the corner...and as i said....medical is another dream for me.....at least i can turn this one into a reality....and insha Allah this year i will.....INSHA ALLAH.....be it pmc or aku....any institute wud do that for me!


okay....another thing tht i have decided.....I AM NOT TO USE NET ANY MORE......i hafta concentrate on my studies and i shudnt b wasting my time on anyting else.....but i also want to settle down everything....all misunderstandings or hidden secrets :S.....before i take a leave from net.....otherwise i just wont b ablle llto concentrate on anything else...... so i hope i'll be talking everythin over very soon......INSHA ALLAH


so...take care all....bye


but before i go....here r the lyrix i promised to post....*Please Forgive Me* by Bryan Adams...(dedicated to the one i luv....but unfortunately cud never prove)



Still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss, it's gettin' better baby
No one can better this...
Still holdin' on, you're still the one
First time our eyes met, same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger, wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on...

So if you're feelin' lonely don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
so if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me, I know not what I do...
please forgive...I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through...
please forgive me...if I need ya like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true...
please forgive me.....i cant stop lovin ya



still feels like our best times together...
feels like the first touch, still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough...
Still holdin' on, still number one
I remember the smell of your skin...i remember everything
i remember ...all your moves...i remember you, yeah!
i remember...the nights ya know I still do...

So if you're feelin' lonely don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
so if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me, I know not what I do...
please forgive...I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through...
please forgive me...if I need ya like I do
oh believe me every word I say is true...
please forgive me.....i cant stop lovin ya



One thing I'm sure of is the way we make love
And one thing I depend on is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...

Please forgive me, I know not what I do...
please forgive...I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through...
please forgive me...if I need ya like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true...
please forgive me.....if i cant stop lovin ya

...Never leave me I don't know what I'd do...
please forgive me.....i cant stop lovin ya

please forgive me.....i cant stop lovin ya