Tryin' to be an Optimist !!!
this was one relievin plus depressing day in all......i had sooooo much fun after a very longg time and im quite happy for that :D:D:D but there came sum moments when i felt really down.....
ok....last night i slept quite late.....got up at 5.00 am with a thought that i was forgettin sumthing....suddenly out of all that darkness......came this reminder of the promise i had made to Dumber......i had to go for shoppin with her at 11.30 am....that was the first moment ever that i hated wakin up at that time......so....set the alarm....got up in time....got ready and we two went shoppin.....no doubt i enjoyed this short expedition a lot.....bought a whole stock of chocolates for this month and helped dumber buy sum stufff....
then got back...had sum snacks with her....then had yummmy kinda lunch....mom cooked haleem and i luved it :D:D:D:D without any exaggeration....it was really very tasty....and those green chillies....man oh man......shit-freezin maza !!!
okay.....after that.....instead of takin a nap....i logged on to net.....tried consolin and easin sumone very special and dear....but i guess i failed....tried a lot....but one thing.....i decided at that very moment that i have selected my future path and i hafta b steadfast....INSHA ALLAH i will b....
had a party at night....Sooper S gave us a treat for becomin a proud khala of a cute nephew....phewwwwww...... yeah....omars too cute.....:D:D:D we had a lotttt of fun.....held him in my arms for sum time....felt too gud.....:D:D and luved the food (as usual :P).....four hours flew so fast that we wanted time to stop and let us enjoy our lives to the utmost forever!!!! just a stupid wish thou :S:S
now these were the happiest moments of the day....but had sum bad ones too.......okay....had fights with aqsu twice and once with sooper S....the coz of first one was certainly that sid thingy......i care for her....i admit it....i madly do....i wud help her anytime and everytime....all i want is that she looks back at me.....bayshuk kisi kaam k liyey hi ho.....i wont mind it.....i know shes too stupid and i cant let her destroy her life no matter she considers me a fool rite now....hopefully kabhi tu ussay ukul aye gi na.....khair....dun want ANYONE....i mean it anyone....to cum and try to convince me against her......then the second topic of argument was abdullah....i hate him man......hate him more than hell....he was a dick-head and wud remain......she thinks i misbehaved.... huhhhh......fuck him.....i hate ppl like u who wud go to any limits just prove an asswhole right ......khairr....this is gona b the last warning....next time i wont hesitate tellin my family......and mind it aqsu this time....u r my best bud but when talkin to me....b my friend and not his sis.....thats final.....
now the worst part.....gettin missed calls from sum MF....and this is gettin serious....told baba and bhai abt it....and they just dont take it seriously :S:S:S they think it cud b any of my friends....abt dunno y im damn too sure its not any friend....frends r not that much cheap.....whoever it is...INSHA ALLAH wud learn sum lesson very soon.....and believe me aqsu....if it comes out to b abd or ali....im not gonna spare ya this time.....thats gonna b the end.....
okay.....abt my prep....its goin too bad....still in search of sum safarish... huhh....hate this pakistani system.....but i know i got no right to bark and bark against the system....untill n unless i cant do sumthing myself to improve it....bol tu her koi sukta hay....per iss ka faida kiya????
khair.....its gettin late....but i hafta share one more thing.....today...came this instant....i just felt i had lost everything....i felt as if my life lay in front of me deafened-blinded-sickened.....i felt as if i cud not breathe....sumthing inside me froze or melted.....dunno wat happened.....but just this single thought of losing *U* made me throw out.....i just wanted to run away.....disappear....become invisible....im sure im not running away from reality and im being practical too....i've got a complete right over my life....my family cant force me....they never did and they shudnt....i am capable of thinkin.....and its not that im blind....i better know who cud prove to b gud for me....above all i have trust....
i gotta have all that i want....INSHA ALLAH.....if we wud b gud for each other....we certainly will get together....
ok....last night i slept quite late.....got up at 5.00 am with a thought that i was forgettin sumthing....suddenly out of all that darkness......came this reminder of the promise i had made to Dumber......i had to go for shoppin with her at 11.30 am....that was the first moment ever that i hated wakin up at that time......so....set the alarm....got up in time....got ready and we two went shoppin.....no doubt i enjoyed this short expedition a lot.....bought a whole stock of chocolates for this month and helped dumber buy sum stufff....
then got back...had sum snacks with her....then had yummmy kinda lunch....mom cooked haleem and i luved it :D:D:D:D without any exaggeration....it was really very tasty....and those green chillies....man oh man......shit-freezin maza !!!
okay.....after that.....instead of takin a nap....i logged on to net.....tried consolin and easin sumone very special and dear....but i guess i failed....tried a lot....but one thing.....i decided at that very moment that i have selected my future path and i hafta b steadfast....INSHA ALLAH i will b....
had a party at night....Sooper S gave us a treat for becomin a proud khala of a cute nephew....phewwwwww...... yeah....omars too cute.....:D:D:D we had a lotttt of fun.....held him in my arms for sum time....felt too gud.....:D:D and luved the food (as usual :P).....four hours flew so fast that we wanted time to stop and let us enjoy our lives to the utmost forever!!!! just a stupid wish thou :S:S
now these were the happiest moments of the day....but had sum bad ones too.......okay....had fights with aqsu twice and once with sooper S....the coz of first one was certainly that sid thingy......i care for her....i admit it....i madly do....i wud help her anytime and everytime....all i want is that she looks back at me.....bayshuk kisi kaam k liyey hi ho.....i wont mind it.....i know shes too stupid and i cant let her destroy her life no matter she considers me a fool rite now....hopefully kabhi tu ussay ukul aye gi na.....khair....dun want ANYONE....i mean it anyone....to cum and try to convince me against her......then the second topic of argument was abdullah....i hate him man......hate him more than hell....he was a dick-head and wud remain......she thinks i misbehaved.... huhhhh......fuck him.....i hate ppl like u who wud go to any limits just prove an asswhole right ......khairr....this is gona b the last warning....next time i wont hesitate tellin my family......and mind it aqsu this time....u r my best bud but when talkin to me....b my friend and not his sis.....thats final.....
now the worst part.....gettin missed calls from sum MF....and this is gettin serious....told baba and bhai abt it....and they just dont take it seriously :S:S:S they think it cud b any of my friends....abt dunno y im damn too sure its not any friend....frends r not that much cheap.....whoever it is...INSHA ALLAH wud learn sum lesson very soon.....and believe me aqsu....if it comes out to b abd or ali....im not gonna spare ya this time.....thats gonna b the end.....
okay.....abt my prep....its goin too bad....still in search of sum safarish... huhh....hate this pakistani system.....but i know i got no right to bark and bark against the system....untill n unless i cant do sumthing myself to improve it....bol tu her koi sukta hay....per iss ka faida kiya????
khair.....its gettin late....but i hafta share one more thing.....today...came this instant....i just felt i had lost everything....i felt as if my life lay in front of me deafened-blinded-sickened.....i felt as if i cud not breathe....sumthing inside me froze or melted.....dunno wat happened.....but just this single thought of losing *U* made me throw out.....i just wanted to run away.....disappear....become invisible....im sure im not running away from reality and im being practical too....i've got a complete right over my life....my family cant force me....they never did and they shudnt....i am capable of thinkin.....and its not that im blind....i better know who cud prove to b gud for me....above all i have trust....
i gotta have all that i want....INSHA ALLAH.....if we wud b gud for each other....we certainly will get together....
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