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i dun wanna think abt my past....i dun want to waste not even a second over those memories.....per i cant help it....the atmosphere around me keeps remindin me of the f- memories.....i dunno if i hav sumone i cud share them with or not....per as far as i can understand may b i dont want to share a few aspects of my life with anyone...not even with my parents....not even with my bro....and not even with my closest friends.....i just want to eat sum pill or potion that wud erase everything outta my mind....
God help me out of all this....i dun want to ruin my present and future coz of my past....
im quite down since a few days...i dun like anything.....i wont take any sheri and i wud fast....then i wud take just a bottle of water for iftari....i dun feel like eating anything....i feel like throwin out all the time.....im not gettin slim neithher do i want to.....per sumthing inside me is certainly going wrong....may b its coz of the weather....i hope im not homesick....the hostel is gud....food is ok....studies r normal.....thou company is not gud.....else everything is fine....i dunno where the prob lies then ?!?!?
i had my computing module today....didnt study a word yesterday.....the module went ok.....in the last module i got 19.5 out of 20.....cant say anything abt this one....teacher mujhe say kafi impressed hain...hope this works.....
my mids r startin from 24th....havent studied a word....upper say economics tu sir say guzar jati hay....Allah behter karayy coz everybodys expecting high from me.....
its 11th of oct today....gaga had to have a bypass operation today...i hope hes done with it and hes fine too....i'll call him tonight Insha Allah.....hes one of those have disappointed.....per wat else can i do!
yesterday huma was off with her friends when aneeqa came to my room....we sat there for a while and then she started doind sum work over my pc....i left the room juz not to disturb her privacy and went outside....enjoyed the soltitude for a while when she came out searching for me.....she was like i shud have stayed there in the room.....khair....then she left for studies and i was sitting in my room when there as this knock at the door.....as i opened the door, i saw two three smart girls fully dressed up, with make-ups and jewelry......i cudnt get at first k who they were until i had a look on my right where huma stood....she was lookin awesome...i wasnt feelin that well so didnt behave well with her friends....woh unko mujhe milwanay laey thin and i just cudnt meet them properly....huma looked at my face like twice with this strange look....they then left and huma murmurred k abhi baad main ati hun.....i felt bad at how i had behaved per ub kiya roona....
then later we were studying under the shade....me, ramsha, ijlal....when i saw her passin by....she stopped and so sympathetically asked "areej tumhari tabiat thek hay?" and i was like yeah Alhamdullilah....i dunno unho nay mind kiya hay ya nahi...us k baad say abhi tuk baat nahi hui....and im not much positive...hope everythings fine....Amin....
way to go rite now...
God help me out of all this....i dun want to ruin my present and future coz of my past....
im quite down since a few days...i dun like anything.....i wont take any sheri and i wud fast....then i wud take just a bottle of water for iftari....i dun feel like eating anything....i feel like throwin out all the time.....im not gettin slim neithher do i want to.....per sumthing inside me is certainly going wrong....may b its coz of the weather....i hope im not homesick....the hostel is gud....food is ok....studies r normal.....thou company is not gud.....else everything is fine....i dunno where the prob lies then ?!?!?
i had my computing module today....didnt study a word yesterday.....the module went ok.....in the last module i got 19.5 out of 20.....cant say anything abt this one....teacher mujhe say kafi impressed hain...hope this works.....
my mids r startin from 24th....havent studied a word....upper say economics tu sir say guzar jati hay....Allah behter karayy coz everybodys expecting high from me.....
its 11th of oct today....gaga had to have a bypass operation today...i hope hes done with it and hes fine too....i'll call him tonight Insha Allah.....hes one of those have disappointed.....per wat else can i do!
yesterday huma was off with her friends when aneeqa came to my room....we sat there for a while and then she started doind sum work over my pc....i left the room juz not to disturb her privacy and went outside....enjoyed the soltitude for a while when she came out searching for me.....she was like i shud have stayed there in the room.....khair....then she left for studies and i was sitting in my room when there as this knock at the door.....as i opened the door, i saw two three smart girls fully dressed up, with make-ups and jewelry......i cudnt get at first k who they were until i had a look on my right where huma stood....she was lookin awesome...i wasnt feelin that well so didnt behave well with her friends....woh unko mujhe milwanay laey thin and i just cudnt meet them properly....huma looked at my face like twice with this strange look....they then left and huma murmurred k abhi baad main ati hun.....i felt bad at how i had behaved per ub kiya roona....
then later we were studying under the shade....me, ramsha, ijlal....when i saw her passin by....she stopped and so sympathetically asked "areej tumhari tabiat thek hay?" and i was like yeah Alhamdullilah....i dunno unho nay mind kiya hay ya nahi...us k baad say abhi tuk baat nahi hui....and im not much positive...hope everythings fine....Amin....
way to go rite now...
posted by Great Warrior at 6:34 PM
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