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lets start again...i just feel as if sum volcano is errupting inside me and the lava is pouring out from time to time......all the time.....yaar....i just want to cry...i want to cry to death....i cant figure out anything....im not homesick as far as i can understand....per sumthing within me certainly is wrong....
amma is not feelin well since two months....and its really not fair that nobody found it important to inform me....moving to a hostel doesnt mean that u have totally moved out of the family! .....she wont go and get a complete check up from sum gud doc.....baba is lazy enuff to persuade her or to forcefully take her to a doc....she wud work out the whole day....wont take rest for min....shes never gets satisfied by wat the maids do.....if shes angry at the maid coz she didnt clean the floor the way she wanted it to b done, she wud abruptly get up and without uttering a single word, she wud start brooming it herself, totally ignoring her own condition.....man....shes a perfectionist and a geat lovin n caring lady.... she wud sumtimes tell me k : baita ager mujhe main himmat ho tu main app logoon k socks b press ker ker k dun!" now thats more than enuff....and i think such a lady actually deserves heavens and a gud life in this world too.... pata nahi Allah nay kis k liyey kiya likha hay....amma is not feelin well....she has got her gall bladder full of stones....it needs to b removed laproscopically but shes scared of any sort of operations....her bp is not gettin under control....thats not a healthy sign...her tatni prob is not solved either....God plz give her a healthy life full of joys and happiness.....she is one person i owe my life to....even if U need to take away my life, i wud want U to do that.....plz
baba has to go to Europe on an auditing tour....he wud b leaving any day in the next two weeks and he supposes k yeh eid to confirm wahin guzray gi...next ka b koi pata nahi....so he has to go.....
tb is lookin for a gud job...he can easily get a gud job....he is a graduate from gik...but the prob is he wants to stay in fsd with amma and baba....he is gettin nice offers but from lhr or isb where he doesnt want to go....he wont ever speak up per i know wat the reason behind this is....he is worried abt amma....he wont ever think of leaving her at the disposal of baba....no doubt baba is a very lovin person but he , at the same time is a bit careless.....amma wont speak her mind up....she wont tell anyone that shes not feelin well....and baba wont ever guess from her face expressions that shes not well....while contrary to this tb or i can judge this thing.....so tb ka point of view b theek hay upni jaga.....
man.....i dunno wats rite and wats wrong....all i know is that im not happy at all...and i dunno whether my family has senses this or not....if yes then possibly amma ki tension ki main wajah once again main hi hun.....God-forbid i wont ever let them have any idea of how i am feelin.....
i cant even say that im feelin better coz im not....just wanna run away.....thats it!!!
amma is not feelin well since two months....and its really not fair that nobody found it important to inform me....moving to a hostel doesnt mean that u have totally moved out of the family! .....she wont go and get a complete check up from sum gud doc.....baba is lazy enuff to persuade her or to forcefully take her to a doc....she wud work out the whole day....wont take rest for min....shes never gets satisfied by wat the maids do.....if shes angry at the maid coz she didnt clean the floor the way she wanted it to b done, she wud abruptly get up and without uttering a single word, she wud start brooming it herself, totally ignoring her own condition.....man....shes a perfectionist and a geat lovin n caring lady.... she wud sumtimes tell me k : baita ager mujhe main himmat ho tu main app logoon k socks b press ker ker k dun!" now thats more than enuff....and i think such a lady actually deserves heavens and a gud life in this world too.... pata nahi Allah nay kis k liyey kiya likha hay....amma is not feelin well....she has got her gall bladder full of stones....it needs to b removed laproscopically but shes scared of any sort of operations....her bp is not gettin under control....thats not a healthy sign...her tatni prob is not solved either....God plz give her a healthy life full of joys and happiness.....she is one person i owe my life to....even if U need to take away my life, i wud want U to do that.....plz
baba has to go to Europe on an auditing tour....he wud b leaving any day in the next two weeks and he supposes k yeh eid to confirm wahin guzray gi...next ka b koi pata nahi....so he has to go.....
tb is lookin for a gud job...he can easily get a gud job....he is a graduate from gik...but the prob is he wants to stay in fsd with amma and baba....he is gettin nice offers but from lhr or isb where he doesnt want to go....he wont ever speak up per i know wat the reason behind this is....he is worried abt amma....he wont ever think of leaving her at the disposal of baba....no doubt baba is a very lovin person but he , at the same time is a bit careless.....amma wont speak her mind up....she wont tell anyone that shes not feelin well....and baba wont ever guess from her face expressions that shes not well....while contrary to this tb or i can judge this thing.....so tb ka point of view b theek hay upni jaga.....
man.....i dunno wats rite and wats wrong....all i know is that im not happy at all...and i dunno whether my family has senses this or not....if yes then possibly amma ki tension ki main wajah once again main hi hun.....God-forbid i wont ever let them have any idea of how i am feelin.....
i cant even say that im feelin better coz im not....just wanna run away.....thats it!!!
posted by Great Warrior at 12:12 AM
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