emotionalised-saddised-traumatised

man....im havin the worst emotions ever...i feel literally very down...i want to cry...tears r almost there....all they might b needin is a slight push....im havin sumthing in my heart i cant figure out myself...


i have these loads of tensions inside my head....i dunno how to cum out of all this...im missin sid a lot today....i want her to be here....zains state makes me miss her even more....im missin dumber as well....the thought of ot bein able to contact her from tonight makes me sad....and then wat the main prob is.....i wanted a lot to sit with huma and talk to her.....and shes not here....


i went to the childrens hospital today....found this very cute boy....firdaus ali...he was sooo damn cute that i cudnt hold my sight off him....i went straight to his father and asked him if i cud take him....the boy immediately climbed into my arms....i talked to him, played with him for like 30 min....and he got so familiar with me that he wont go back to his family....that was the best feelin ne cud have....his father needed financial support coz the boy has cancer....Allah....


ok...im going to the hospital tomorow once again....and im goin to fsd as well....i think main kuch hi ursay main fsd transfer kerwa lun gi upnay credit hours....i want to b there....actually i want to be with him...