Cumin back to.......L.I.F.E

i've been thinkin a lot lately....sum mixed thoughts....i've seen that ppl r all soo happy....sumtimes it does make me jealous...all the gurls over here r big time flirts....aik ko 10 ka time diya hay tu dosray ko 12 ka....and it continues!


like they r happy with this....full time fun....hur taraf say gifts, sara sara din sari raat fone calls, outings, fun, shugal....its not that im bein materialistic...but this is how life at this stage oughta b! boyfriendS, scandels, bus this is life! they dun feel lonely....aik say larai tu dosra ready....lolzz...


c how mixed and fucked up thoughts im havin....i dun mean to say that im desparate and i want boyfriends too...i hope i never get indulged in such activities....if i want to then i can find as many bfs as i want...per this is NOT wat i want....i wud just luv to go for a few nice n sincere friends (girls as well as boys)...


on the other hand, if i luk back, i've got a lot of gud friends but i dunno wats up with me....i just cant learn to trust ppl...or else i do trust my friends but i dun feel like sharin my stuff with them! watever.....