Hmmmmmm :S:S:S:S

wat did i do? neither of us cud speak well....at least
i cudnt...was havin cuff....plus that confusion :S:S:S
was a lil bit angry plus lots and lots of mixed feelings...

i hope as i lost sumbody's trust.....i don't lose my
parents' trust.....in a very confusin state i am rite now...
cud obey my parents and keep their trust or i cud
have secured sumones trust and my life.....

now i dunno wats imp for me....surely both but dunno
sum middle way for this.....i hope everybody reading
this blog understands wat im going thru rite now...

hmmm...wish ppl had even a least bit of trust in me....
huh....nobody ever had....

but i swear to God.....i had complete trust....never
lied abt anything.....never mistrusted....did not
ever ever let my mind think the wrong way.....
never gave a damn abt those rumours just becuz
of mere trust......and God Dammit...i never knew
trust was to be pillarised on such small and stupid
things.....thought that LOVE.....had to be sumthing
quite deep and away from such humanly stuff....
sumthing that wud have got nothin to do with
the materialistic things.....and TRUST was to
be its sole pillar.....

has anyone ever seen a palace standing in
air??? with no pillar at all???

..........a cake without sugar????
..........a body without soul????

huh....wtf.....confusions surrounding me.....
digging my mind....stabbing my heart.....